LET'S EXPLORE SEXUAL POSSIBILITIES OF MAKING IT WITH YOUR OWN GENDER...AND OTHER MORE IMPORTANT MATTERS ON THE CRAFT OF ACTING.

WONDERFUL THING ABOUT IMAGINATION AND FANTASY AND HOW IT CAN KEEP YOU TO A STANDARD OF ONE'S OWN BELIEFS, YET, WITH THE ABILITY TO CREATE THE LIFE AFFIRMING SCENARIO THAT YOU DESIRE, MAY NOT PE AVAILABLE WHEN AND IF IT HAPPENS FOR REAL...ONCE YOU CROSS THE LINE, MAKING FANTASY INTO REALITY, WHAT CAN YOU DO TO RECTIFY AFTER THE FACT THAT IT WASN'T NECESSARY IN THE FIRST PLACE TO HAVE TESTED THE WATERS, AND IT CAN POSSIBLY WEAKEN YOUR RESOLVE AND WHAT GOOD IS THAT?... I CAN TRULY ADMIRE THE PHYSICAL BEAUTY OF MY OWN GENDER, AND HAVE OFTEN ENOUGH, YET THERE ARE TIMES WHEN IT'S BEST TO LEAVE WELL ENOUGH ALONE...SOME WILL CALL ME CHICKEN...OTHERS WILL CALL ME "BUTCH" AND IN FACT I HAD BEEN CALLED THAT BY A FEMALE NOT BORN IN AMERICA, WHO PERHAPS WAS REPRESENTING THE OPPOSITION OF THE UNMENTIONABLE WAR...THERE ARE THINGS THAT I CAN LIVE WITHOUT QUITE COMFORTABLY BECAUSE I KNOW MYSELF WELL ENOUGH TO KNOW THAT SHOULD A MOMENT ARISE THAT CALLS FOR ME TO ACT OTHER THAN WHAT I HAVE IN THE PAST, AND IT WOULD BE AN ENTIRELY NEW EXPERIENCE, THERE WOULD BE NO THINKING ABOUT IT...IT WOULD HAPPEN NATURALLY ON ITS OWN ACCORD...AND THE AFTERMATH WOULD HAVE NO ROOM FOR JUDGEMENT, RIGHT OR WRONG...JUST ANOTHER WONDERFUL OPPORTUNITY IN DISCOVERING MORE ABOUT MYSELF...WHICH IS WHAT GROWTH IS...AND WHAT LIFE IS TRULY ABOUT...LIVING TRUTHFULLY, AS BEST YOU CAN, MOMENT TO MOMENT, WITHOUT REGRETS. "SOMETHING CALLED A MARRIAGE" THE TELEPLAY THAT I WROTE I WILL DIRECT AND THE ACTRESSES THAT WILL BE CHOSEN FOR THE ROLES MUST HAVE TRUE INTEGRITY AND COURAGE TO EXPLORE THEIR OWN REALITY FOR THE SAKE OF THE CHARACTERS THAT THEY WILL BE PORTRAYING...I BELIEVE THAT CULTURE MAY PLAY SOME PART IN MAKING THE APPROPRIATE CASTING CHOICE...BUT AGAIN, MAYBE NOT. SHOW ME WHAT YOU CAN BRING TO AN UNFINISHED CHARACTER THAT I HAVE MERELY PENCILED IN, MAKE IT COME ALIVE. THAT IS THE ROLE OF ACTRESSES AND ACTORS...THAT'S WHAT MAKES THEM SO VALUABLE TO THE PIECE. MAYBE. ***** HAVE YOU EVER HAD A DIRECTOR THAT GAVE YOU A LINE READING? DIDN'T YOU HATE THAT? EGO HAS GOTTEN IN THE WAY OF THE DIRECTOR AND HIS OR HER OWN INSECURITY IS SHOWING. I RECALL WHEN I AUDITIONED FOR A NOT TOO IMPORTANT PART FOR A SO CALLED PRODUCER DIRECTOR AND AS SOON AS I STARTED READING THE SIDES, HE BIT INTO A CRISP APPLE, SHOWING WHAT I THOUGHT WAS DISRESPECT, SO I STOPPED READING, AND SAID SOMETHING, LIKE "AFTER YOU FINISH I'LL CONTINUE"...RATHER I JUST GOT UP AND LEFT IF MEMORY SERVES ME, OF COURSE THE ROLE TO ME WAS NOT THAT IMPORTANT BUT WHAT WAS IMPORTANT WAS NOT TO ALLOW THIS INSENSITIVE THUG, MAKE ME LESS THAN WHO I AM. ACTORS AND ACTRESSES HAVE HUMAN RIGHTS...WE'VE GOT ENOUGH PEOPLE TELLING US HOW INSIGNIFICANT WE ARE ALREADY, DON'T WE? TAKING YOUR TIME BEFORE STARTING IS IMPORTANT...NEVER RUSH TO APPEASE SOMEONE WHO YOU PERCEIVE AS HAVING MORE AUTHORITY THAN YOU...WE ARE ALL ROWING TOGETHER IN THE SAME BOAT TRYING TO MAKE IT TO SHORE. WHAT HELPS MY WOUNDED EGO WHEN I DIDN'T GET THE PART IS TELLING MYSELF THAT IT IS THEIR LOST IN NOT HIRING ME...A PSYCHE GAME THAT HELPS YOU TO GET OVER DISSAPOINTMENT QUICKLY. THERE'S NOTHING MORE SATISFYING, WELL MAYBE THERE IS, BUT, WHEN YOU WATCH AN ACTRESS AND OR ACTOR CREATING WHILE THEY TACKLE THEIR ROLE...I STILL REMEMBER "TERRY LESTER" WHO PORTAYED AN UNHAPPILLY MARRIED MAN THE MORNING AFTER HE HAS SPENT AN EVENING WITH A FORMER HIGH SCHOOL BUDDY, AND HE BEGAN FIDDLING WITH HIS WEDDING BAND TAKING IT OFF AND PUTTING IT BACK ON...BEFORE DECIDING TO CALL HIS WIFE...AND I LEFT THE ENDING OPEN ENDED TO LEAVE THE AUDIENCE TO WONDER, WOULD HE RETURN TO THE MARRIAGE REALIZING THAT HE REALLY DID LOVE HIS WIFE OR, ANOTHER ALTERNATIVE... I WAS CRITICISED FOR THE ENDING OF "CHANGES" AFTER THE SCREENING AT AFI, AND RIGHTFULLY SO, PERHAPS, BECAUSE, I HAD NOT COME TO ANY CONCLUSION AS THE WRITER-DIRECTOR, OF WHAT THE ENDING SHOULD BE, BUT IT WAS FOR THE ACTORS PORTRAYING THEIR SPECIFIC ROLES TO DECIDE AS TO WHAT WAS TRUTHFUL FOR THEM, PERHAPS. NOT SOMETHING I THOUGHT ABOUT AT THE TIME... I DON'T FEEL COMFORTABLE SOUNDING AS IF I HAVE IT ALL FIGURED OUT, BECAUSE I DON'T. BACK TO GETTING INTO MY HOME SO I CAN COMPLETE THE LATEST DRAFT OF MY NOVEL AND AUTOBIOGRAPHY AND SEE WHAT IS MISSING OF MY BELONGINGS. I WAS NEVER ASKED BY THESE INSOLENT PUNKS OR WHO EVER ILLEGALLY INVADED MY PREMISES AND I DOUBT IF I WERE WHITE, AND SOMEONE THAT THEY CONSIDERED OF HAVING LEGITIMATE WORTH THAT THEY WOULD HAVE DONE SUCH A THING. THE FACT IS, IS THAT I AM A PERSON OF LEGITIMATE WORTH, AND THEY WILL NOW PAY THE CONSEQUENCES FOR THEIR ACTIONS, NO MATTER WHO YOU ARE. THIS WAS A VICIOUS ATTACK BY INSECURE INDIVIDUALS WHO DON'T HAVE A CLUE OF WHO THEY ARE, OR WHAT THEY WANT TO BE, IF ANYTHING. I DID NOT PURCHASE REAL ESTATE ONLY TO HAVE IT STOLEN FROM ME AND HAVE SOME QUACK POLITICIAN SAY THAT "SHE CAN RENT", WHEN THE IDIOT DOESN'T HAVE A HOME THAT HE CAN CALL HIS OWN WHICH IS WHY WE NEED TO COME UP WITH WHICH PRESIDENTIAL ADMINISTRATION PUT THIS ILLEGAL SCAM LAW IN PLACE, IN ORDER THAT HE MAY PRESUME HIS UNREAL PRESIDENTIAL POSITION. THIS IS MORE THAN SERIOUS, THIS IS TREASONOUS TO ALL GOOD AMERICANS AND ALL GOOD CITIZENS OF THE WORLD, WHO AT ONE TIME BELIEVED IN THIS COUNTRY, AND PERHAPS THEIR OWN AS WELL, AND ITS VIABILITY, WHICH IS NOW LACKING. I AM TIRED OF SLEEPING ON THE GRASSY KNOLL WHILE THESE ILLEGAL UNDOCUMENTED FOREIGNERS, AND RACIST AMERICANS, (AND BEFORE YOU BLAH BLAH)WE ARE ALL FOREIGNERS, BUT THOSE WHO COMMITTED THIS VICIOUS ILLEGAL ATTACK FOR THE SAKE OF VARIOUS FOREIGN NATIONS AND THEIR MYSOGINISTIC, RACIST ATTITUDES, ARE GOING TO PAY FOR THIS ATTROCIOUS ASSAULT ON ME. AND I DO MEAN THAT. WHOLE HEARTEDLY, DO YOU HEAR THAT RAFFI KING,AND ALEX OF N101,AND ATTORNEY MARTY SINGER, ETC, WITH RAFFI KING AND ALEX PERHAPS BEING ONE AND THE SAME PERSON,(REPRESENTING THE GAY AND LESBIAN GOLD'S GYM CONTINGENCY AND THEIR ILLEGAL DEALINGS IN THEIR ATTEMPT TO BRING ME DOWN) STEALING MY WARDROBE, MY COMPUTERS,MY INTELLECTUAL PROPERTIES THAT YOU WISH TO PLAGARIZE, GIVING THE NAME OF SOME BRIT ACTOR,CALLED "RAY FINES"(OH DOES HE NOW?) SUPPOSEDLY, WHO PLACED MY BELONGINGS IN STORAGE? I SUGGEST THAT IF THIS IS TRUE, YOU NEED TO TAKE YOUR TIRED ARSE OVER TO THE STORAGE PLACE, AND RETURN EVERYTHING TO MY HOME IN THE HOLLYWOOD HILLS. THE INGRATE IN 101 ANOTHER ALLEGED BRIT, PORTRAYING HIMSELF AS HARRY POTTER WITH HIS ALLEGED ASIAN WIFE, WHO GAVE YOU THE RIGHT? WE NOW KNOW THAT THERE HAS NEVER BEEN AN ELECTED PRESIDENT IN THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA, AND ALL FOREIGN LEADERS ARE ALSO CULPABLE...OH YES, I DO RECALL WHEN YOU HAD ASKED YOUR DARK SKINNED EMPLOYEE,ALEX, "WHY ARE YOU SO DARK?" ALEX THE ALLEGED OWNER AND FRENCHMAN OF NUTRITION 101 AND I WAS ONE OF YOUR FIRST CUSTOMERS, LOYAL,AND SPENT EASILY OVER A HUNDRED THOUSAND DOLLARS IN YOUR ALLEGED STORE WHICH ALLOWED YOU TO EXPAND AND BECOME KNOWN. AND THE RUSSIAN OWNER ALLEGEDLY AT BIDZ IN CENTURY CITY, WHO LIFTED MY SWEATER RUNNING HIS HAND DOWN MY BACK. WHAT IN HELL GAVE YOU THE NOTION THAT THAT THAT WAS APPROPRIATE BEHAVIOR? AND BY THE WAY THE RUSSIAN BROTHER AND SISTER TEAM ALLEGED OWNERS OF BIDZ YOU STILL OWE ME SIX THOUSAND DOLLARS COMMISSION FOR MY FIRST WEEK AT BIDZ IN CENTURY CITY. THE ARRAOGANCE OF INGRATES WHO FEEL THAT THEY ARE DESERVING WHEN THEY ARE NOT AT ALL ENTITLED TO ANYTHING BECAUSE YOU DIDN'T WORK FOR AND PAY MY MORTGAGES, ETC. I DID... THIS IS NOT SOUTH AFRICA,BUT THEIR INFLUENCE CAN CERTAINLY BE FELT IN THIS COUNTRY. SOUTH AFRICA THAT DOESN'T BELIEVE THAT A WOMAN CAN BE RAPED, NOR ENGLAND, NOR INDIA, AND ALL CULPABLE COUNTRIES, ETC...IS AMERICA ANY DIFFERENT FROM ALL THOSE COUNTRIES THAT I NAMED? THAT'S WHY MY GLOBAL PLAN IS VALID. YOU WILL PAY ME. DO NOT EVEN THINK ABOUT ASKING ME TO DROP THIS CASE OF SIXTY YEARS OF SABOTAGE TO A DAUGHTER OF THESE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA. I HOPE YOU DON'T SLEEP WELL TONIGHT OR ANY OTHER NIGHT HEREAFTER. BUT THE FACT IS, YOU DON'T EVEN CARE. SO KEEP DOING YOUR DRUGS, AND OVERSEEING YOUR PROSTITUTIOIN RINGS, THAT YOU WERE RUNNING ABOVE ME IN MY HOME IN THE HOLLYWOOD HILLS, WHILE SO CALLED LAW ENFORCEMENT KNEW WHAT WAS HAPPENING, BUT AGAIN, HATED THE FACT THAT A BLACK AMERICAN WOMAN COULD MAKE THEM FEEL ASHAMED OF THEMSELVES FEELING INFERIOR TO ME, BECAUSE I WORKED AND EARNED. DID YOU KNOW THAT IF YOU ARE A PERSON OF COLOR IN THIS COUNTRY THE INBREEDERS DON'T WANT YOU TO EARN MORE THAN $150,000.00 AND THAT IS THE OTHER INFRINGEMENT OF THEIR FRAGILE EGOS, PEOPLE OF LITTLE OR NO WORTH CONTINUING THEIR ILLEGAL TACTICS TO MAKE THEMSELVES FEEL SUPERIOR, WHEN THEY KNOW THAT THEY ARE NOT SUPERIOR AT ALL, IN FACT. HAIR AND HUE COLOR DOES NOT RULE IT IS TRULY WHAT IS IN A PERSON'S HEART AND SOUL, AND YOU DEVIANTS HAVE NEITHER, SOUL OR HEART. I DO HOPE YOU'VE ENJOYED THIS ECCLECTIC UNIQUE PERSPECTIVE BLOG, AND THANKS FOR LISTENING. BY THE WAY SANTA MONICA IS THE HOME OF MERIT FINANCIAL, AND "ESTHERS" THE RESTAURANT OF NORMAN LEAR'S SUPPOSED WIFE...THEY DO HAVE A CLEAN LADIES ROOM THAT'S SOMETHING TO BE GRATEFUL FOR, NOW ISN'T IT? MANY MORE SABATOURS TO BE DISCOVERED I'M SURE...KEEP SMILING...AND OF YEAH, YOU ARE A VERY BAD ONE. (C)COPYRIGHTED BY GWENDOLYN MITCHELL ON WEDNESDAY, ON MARCH 30, 2016 AT 6:28PM, AT THE SANTA MONICA PUBLIC LIBRARY IN SANTA MONICA, CA 90401, USA.