I COULDN'T BELIEVE MY EYES...

AND THEY SAY OF COURSE THAT YOU SHOULDN'T BELIEVE WHAT YOU SEE OR HEAR...SO WE MUST ALWAYS REMEMBER THIS...IT HELPS I BELIEVE TO KEEP ONE BALANCED AND ON AN EVEN KEEL, SO TO SPEAK. IT EXPLAINS HOW IMPORTANT EDITORS ARE, ALONG WITH DIRECTORS OF COURSE AND IN FILM THE COMBINATION IS NECESSARY, BUT OF COURSE FILM IS A COLLABORATIVE...ITS SUCCESS DEPENDENT ON MANY PEOPLE... I HAPPENED TO LOOK UP FROM MY MEAL AND NOTICED A COMMERCIAL, NOT RECALLING THE PRODUCT BEING SOLD. BUT THERE WAS A BLOND OF COURSE, AS THE PRINCIPAL CHARACTER WALKED TOWARDS CAMERA AND A CUT TO A GROUP SHOT OF FOUR, INCLUDING THE LEAD CHARACTER, AND BOTH COUPLES WERE EQUALLY PHYSICALLY APPEALING REPRESENTING BLACK AND WHITE, BUT WHAT I DID NOTICE WAS THAT THE BLACK WOMAN WAS NOT GIVEN A FULL FACE SHOT, IN FACT, IT APPEARED THAT SHE HAD BEEN DELIBERATELY BLOCKED BY THE BLOND WOMAN, AND AT LEAST THE ATTRACTIVE BLACK MAN DID GET A FULL FACE ANGLE...NOW I DID NOTICE THAT THE BLACK WOMAN WAS "WORKING IT A WHOLE LOT" WHICH ACTUALLY EMPHASIZED THE IMPORTANCE OF THE WHITE BLOND LIKE A BACK UP SINGER WHOSE JOB IT IS TO MAKE THE "STAR" SOUND BETTER...AND I RECALL WHEN JUST STARTING MY ACTING CAREER I WOULD OVER REACT ON CAMERA. SO I CAN EMPATHIZE... BUT THE SPOKESWOMAN COMMERCIAL THAT I PERFORMED FOR SOUTH WESTERN BELL WHERE I WAS THE ONLY SPOKESPERSON SUDDENLY BECOMING A "BUY OUT" THOUGH I WOULD DISCOVER LATER THANKS TO A WONDERFUL PERSON AT THE ADVERTISING AGENCY WHO MAILED ME A SCHEDULE OF WHEN IT WOULD BE SHOWING. THE PRODUCER OF THE COMMERCIAL BY THE WAY HAD BEEN BLACK, AND PROBABLY STILL IS, OR, MAY BE NOT. AND I HAD TO GO AFTER THE DEVIANTS TO BE PAID AND AGAIN, SAG DID VERY LITTLE TO HELP ME WITH MY DILEMMA. THE NEWPORT CIGARETTE COMMERCIAL WHERE I CLIMBED UP A GIANT CIGARETTE IN A WHITE JUMP SUIT, AND I WAS A NON SMOKER AS WELL, I DON'T RECALL IF I RECEIVED ANY RESIDUALS WITH THIS AS WELL, DESPITE THE AD AGENCY SENDING ME A LIMO TO BE PICKED UP IN. I FELT EMBARRASSED BY THE OVER KILL FOR JUST A COMMERCIAL BUT OF COURSE IT WAS MORE THAN THAT, WASN'T IT. AFTER ALL, MY ALSO REGARDING THE NAME GAMES "MARISKA" IS A RUSSIAN NAME AND OF COURSE AGENTS OF ALL SORTS USE MANY DIFFERENT NAMES, IN FACT, OFTEN POSING AS SOMEONE REAL OTHER THAN THEMSELVES, IN OTHER WORDS NOT MADE UP, WHICH HAS HAPPENED IN MY CASE...ACTRESSES BOTH BLACK AND WHITE USING MY LIFE HISTORY TO GIVE THEMSELVES UNDESERVED IMPORTANCE IN THE INDUSTRY AS IF SOMEONE FOUND ME DEAD NAKED IN MY BED, OF COURSE THAT WOULD BE IMPOSSIBLE NOW THAT I'M SLEEPING ON THE GRASSY KNOLL...AND OF COURSE THEY DO IT WITH WRITERS AS WELL, REPEATEDLY USING A SMALL GROUP, INCLUDING SECOND AND THIRD GENERATIONS OF HEMINGWAY'S, FAULKNER'S, OATS, ETC BEINGS THAT HAD POSSIBLY BEEN CREATED FROM THE SCRAPINGS FROM HUMAN EGGS FROM A DESIRABLE DONOR, OR MIXED IN A PETTRY DISH, OR CLONED... SO WHAT IT COMES DOWN TO AS FAR AS THE POSERS, IS THE QUESTION, "IS ONE WORTH MORE DEAD THAN ALIVE?"...A GRUESOME THOUGHT I KNOW, BUT ONE WE NEED NOT WORRY ABOUT DUE TO THE AMOUNT OF ARTISTS THAT WILL BE ABLE TO RESURRECT THEIR CAREERS WITH OUR FINAL PARADIGM...ONE OF COURSE THAT WILL CONTINUE TO EVOLVE...DO WE REALLY NEED A MAKE OVER OF "GIGI" WHEN THE FIRST ONE WAS GREAT! THOUGH I HAVE THOUGHT OF AUNT NEZ DOING "AUNTIE MAME" WITH A VIRTUALLY ALL BLACK CAST...SHE DOES HAVE AN AUNTIE MAME PERSONALITY AND ACTUALLY I THINK IT WOULD BE GREAT AS A MUSICAL ON BROADWAY AS WELL... GOING FORWARD EACH GENERATION HAS SOMETHING TO OFFER AND IN ART SOMETHING NEW CAN BE CREATED UNDER THE SUN...I HATE WHEN A SO CALLED AGENT SAYS,"OH THERE'S NOTHING NEW UNDER THE SUN!" IN HIS WORLD THIS MAY BE TRUE, BECAUSE ALL HE DOES IS SIT ON HIS FAT ASS AND DO NOTHING BUT SABOTAGE THE VERY PEOPLE THAT HE OR SHE IS SUPPOSED TO BE REPRESENTING. IT IS NOT EXCITING FOR AN ARTIST TO HEAR,"OH THERE'S NOTHING NEW UNDER THE SUN" IT KILLS CREATIVITY, NOR IS IT NECESSARILY TRUE.WE SHOULD ALL BE STRIVING FOR SOMETHING NEW UNDER THE SUN, SHOULDN'T WE? AND THEY SAY THAT BECAUSE I THINK THAT THEY ARE ALREADY PLOTTING TO PLAGIARIZE YOUR WORK. I RECALL WHEN MY LITERARY AGENT AND I WERE SPEAKING AND HE SUDDENLY SAID, "YOU KNOW I DO HAVE ANOTHER WRITER BY THE NAME OF GWENDOLYN MITCHELL. MY HEART STOPPED BUT I SAID NOTHING...ALREADY THE WHEELS OF MY DISASTER WERE BEING GREASED AND OILED. YET I REMEMBERED HIS COMMENT. WITH EACH PASSING DAY I BECOME MORE REASSURED THAT OUR GLOBAL PLAN IS GOING IN THE APPROPRIATE DIRECTION...AS EVIDENCED FOR INSTANCE BY AMPAS,(THE AMERICAN MOTION PICTURE ARTS AND SCIENCES) AND ITS GLOBAL "SIBLINGS". I AM NOT INTERESTED IN BECOMING PREGNANT BY ANYONE AND I REALIZE THAT THIS IS JUST A WAY OF PUSHING ME OFF MY COURSE, MEN ARE JUST SO WONDERFULLY DEVILISH WITH THEIR GAMES OF TREACHERY THAT TELL US THAT THEY ALWAYS WANT TO BE ON TOP. YET, SOMETIMES IT'S FUN TO CHANGE THE POSITION, DON'T YOU THINK? GIVES YOU A CHANCE TO JUST LIE THERE AND TAKE IT! (C)COPYRIGHTED BY GWENDOLYN MITCHELL ON MARCH 15, 2016 AT 2:57PM AT THE WEST HOLLYWOOD COUNTY LIBRARY 90069