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IT SEEMED TO BEGIN, THE SABOTAGE THAT IS, IN NEW YORK, WHEN I HAD DECIDED TO PURSUE MY DESTINY. IT WAS NOT AN EASY DECISION TO MAKE BY ANY MEANS BECAUSE I WAS LEAVING A HUSBAND AT THAT TIME WHO I HAD STILL LOVED. MORE IMPORTANTLY TO THE MATTER THAT I WAS LEAVING MY NINE YEAR OLD SON. I KNEW MY LEAVING WAS BEST. I WAS LEAVING HIS FATHER NOT HIM. I WOULD PICK TOD UP ON THE WEEK-END, NORMALLY ON SUNDAY, SINCE I WAITRESSED AT THE "WESTBOONDOCK" THE BEST UP-SCALE SOUL FOOD RESTAURANT. IT WAS OWNED BY TWO-NON-BLOOD-BROTHA'S WHO WERE EASY TO WORK FOR AND WITH. I HAD THE HARDEST TIME WITH THE COOK WHO ALWAYS CALLED ME "CRAZY" WHICH IS A CHANT FOR MANY MEN WHO FEEL THREATENED BY A WOMAN. I DIDN'T KNOW WHY THE COOK DIDN'T LIKE ME, BUT WHEN I'D PICK UP MY ORDER TO DELIBER TO MY HUNGRY CUSTOMERS, HE'D ALWAYS SAY, "TAKE ALL THE PLATES...DON'T TAKE JUST ONE AND COME BACK...YOU CRAZY!" HE WAS A DARK SKINNED BLACK MAN AND WJUST MAY BE HE HAD SEEN MY FRIEND, "MEL" ANOTHER ASPIRING THISPIAN WHO DROVE A CAB AND EVENTUALLY WOULD SELL ADVERTISING SPACE FOR INTERNATIONAL MAGAZINES. WE EVENTUALLY LOST TRACK OF EACH OTHER, BUT I RECALL RECEIVING A MYSTERIOUS CALL FROM A FEMALE (THOUGH I UNDERSTAND THEY HAVE MACHINES NOW THAT CAN CHANGE THE GENDER VOICE, I DON'T KNOW WHETHER SOMETHING LIKE THAT HAD EXISTED AT THAT TIME, BACK AROUND 1970). SHE DIDN'T IDENTIFY HERSELF, NOT THAT I HAD ASKED HER NAME, AND SHE SAID, "IS MEL WEINBERGER YOUR FRIEND?" I DON'T REMEMBER MY EXACT RESPONSE BUT HER INQUIRY DID BRING MEMORY BACK TO THE LOVELY EVENING I HAD WHEN HE TOK ME TO HIS PARENTS HOME. THERE WAS A CELEBRATION IN PROGRESS. I DON'T RECALL THE SPECIFICS BUT WE DANCED AND I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER MEL FOR TWO REASONS- FIRST, HE ALWAYS LAUNDED MY SON- SAYING, "GWEN YOU'RE NEVER GOING TO HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT TOD- HE'S GOOD". AND THE SECOND REASON I COULD NEVER FORGET MEL WEINBERGER IS THAT HE'D TOLD HIS FAMILY WHEN HE INTRODUCED ME TO THEM, "GWEN, I CAN TAKE ANY WHERE- SHE FITS IN WHEREVER SHE GOES". I HAD APPRECIATED THE REMARK AND SILENTLY WONDERED TO MYSELF IT IT WAS TRUE. MEL, TOD AND I MARCHED AGAINST THE ASSASSINATION OF DR. MARTIN LUTHER KING JR. IN CENTRAL PARK, THE THREE OF US, AND THERE WERE MANY THERE, ALL HUES MOURNING THE DEATH OF A GREAT WORLD LEADER. AND I REMEMBER, IF MEMORY SERVES ME CORRECTLY, AND IT DOESN'T ALWAYS OF COURSE, NOT FOR ANYBODY. I RECALL A PHOTOGRAPHER SHOUTING AT ME TO NOT TO SMILE AND I WAS THINKING AT THE TIME ABOUT THE IRONY OF WAR...HOW IT ONLY REALLY(THERE'S THAT VERY IMPORTANT WORD AGAIN) SERVES THE BAD GUYS. ******** WHILE WASHING MYSELF THIS MORNING IN THE PARK'S WOMEN'S ROOM, (NOT GOING BAREFOOT IN THE PARK), I HEARD SOMEONE AT THE OUTSIDE DOOR AND I TURNED SEEING A "HALLE BERRY" LOOK ALIKE, SIMILAR TO THE PERSON I HAD SEEN ON THE SUBWAY BACK IN NEW YORK AT CHRISTMAS TIME. SHE'D BEEN SITTING NOT TOO FAR FROM ANOTHER THESPIAN, RAY LEOTTA: THIS WAS WHEN I HAD STAYED AT tHE pLAZA AND I WENT TO VISIT MY EX HUSBAND WHO HAD TOLD ME THAT HE WAS GOING IN TO MONTEFURIE HOSPITAL FOR PROSTRATE SURGERY. ONLY TO DISCOVER WHEN I HAD DROPPED OFF THE CHRISTMAS GIFTS FOR HE AND TOD THAT HE APPEARED PERFECTLY FINE. THE VISIT WAS STRANGE AND THANKFULLY SHORT, AND NOT PLEASANT AT ALL. I HAD DETECTED THAT THERE WAS SOMEONE IN THE BACK BEDROOM, CHUCK AND I STAYED IN THE LIVING ROOM. CHUCK APPEARED ANGRY AT SEEING ME SAYING, "DIDN'T I TELL YOU NOT TO COME HERE!" OF COURSE HE HADN'T AT LEAST I DON'T REMEMBER HIM SAYING THAT BUT CHUCK COULD BE THE MODEL FOR A PERFECT ANGRY EX-HUSBAND, ONLY HE HAD NEVER PAID ALIMONEY. I HAD TURNED IT DOWN WHEN I HAD VISITED THE ATTORNEY WHOSE CARD HE HAD HANDED ME WHEN I TOLD HIM THAT I WANTED MY FREEDOM AND THAT I WANTED A DIVORCE. THE ATTORNEY'S OFFICE WAS SMALL AND HE WAS SLIGHTLY BUILT, CAUCASIAN, OR APPEARED TO BE, AND HE ASKED ME, "SO HOW MUCH DO YOU WANT?" I REMEMBER MY HEART WAS BEATING SO HARD AND FAST THAT IT FELT LIKE IT WAS GOING TO CRASH THROUGH MY CHEST. I STOOD IN THE SPARSLEY FURNISHED OFFICE, AND REPEATED, "I JUST WANT MY FREEDOM. I'LL BE LEAVING BY THE END OF THE WEEK" WHICH I DID, TAKING A SMALL SUITCASE THAT I BELIEVE HAD BELONGED TO AUNT NEZ. AND THAT WAS THE END OF THAT TRUE STORY AND THE BEGINNING OF MY NEW LIFE IN HONOR OF MY INDEPENDENCE. LITTLE DID I KNOW THAT THAT WOULD BE THE BEGINNING OF MY SABOTAGE BY MY MANY ASSASSINS WHO CONTINUE THEIR BLOOD BATH AGAINST ME. *********** I WILL BE LESS APPREHENSIVE ONCE I KNOW THAT ALL OF MY INTELLECTUAL PROPERTIES ARE SAFE...I MET SOME VERY INTERESTING CHARACTERS THIS MORNING, REPRESENTING THE EUROPEAN CONTINGENCY...AND ONCE AGAIN I SAW MY FAIRY GODMOTHER WITH HER TWO HAPPY DOGS WAGGING THEIR TAILS AND I WATCHED HER CIRCLE THE PARK AND DISAPPEAR, AS SHE HAD ONE NIGHT LAST WEEK. THERE WAS OTTO SAYING HIS GOOD-BYE TO ME AND GESTURING FOR ME TO BE STRONG, AND I NOTICED THE TEARS WHICH CAUSED ME TO CRY FOR JUST A MOMENT OR TWO...AND LASTLY I SAW A SEAN CONNERY WANNA BE...PRETTY SEXY, BUT NOT QUITE AS GOOD AS THE ORIGINAL...AND SITTING TO MY RIGHT CURRENTLY, IS AN O'BAMA- WANNA- BE, OR COULD IT BE HIS "COVER". I SAW HIS PHOTOGRAPH WHEN I HAD MY HAIR COLORED JUST NORTH OF THIRD STREET...I HAD STOPPED IN BECAUSE THEY HAD A BUDDHA AND MY STYLIST TOLD ME THAT THEY WERE MOVING BECAUSE THE RENT HAD JUST SKYROCKETED, AND JAY LUCHS HAD STRUCK AGAIN...I WONDER IF THAT COULD'VE BEEN THE SAME JAY SHAPIRO WHO HAD BEEN ALBERT NO'S ROOM MATE AT THE SANTA MONICA APARTMENTS THAT HE HAD SHARED A TWO BEDROOM WITH. ******** THESE MINSTRIL DIRECTORS STILL HAVE THE AUDACITY TO THINK THAT THEY ARE GOING TO GET CREDIT FOR MY INTELLECTUAL PROPERTIES. IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN. AND THERE WILL BE SPECIAL ATTENTION PAID TO THE CHEROKEE POST OFFICE WHERE YESTERDAY I RECEIVED ABSOLUTELY NO MAIL, NOT ONE PIECE, INTERESTING BECAUSE I HAD DELIBERATELY LEFT THE CURRENT "O" MAGAZINE IN MY P.O. BOX...SO WHAT HAPPENED TO THE MAIL? AND AGAIN, I HAVE YET TO HAVE THE ABILITY TO GET INTO MY UNIT 205 IN THE HOLLYWOOD HILLS, 90046, NOT HOLLYWOOD, IT IS A VAST DIFFERENCE IN COST. I RECALL YEARS AGO WHEN I WAS CONTEMPLATING PURCHASING A FOUR UNIT IN HOLLYWOOD, AND DISCOVERED THAT IT'S RENT CONTROLLED SO I DECIDED NOT TO PURCHASE. OF COURSE MY RENTAL AT 7813 QUEZON AVE. IN CAL CITY, CA 93505 WHO EVER IS OCCUPYING MY HOME MUST PAY ME $1500 A MONTH, AND IN TERMS OF MY CONDO, AGAIN I HEARTILLY URGE WHOEVER HAS THE LEGAL CAPACITY TO GET ALL THOSE FREE LOADERS OUT OF THE 18 OTHER UNITS AND ALLOW ME TO SEE WHAT ELSE IS MISSING FROM MY UNIT, I DO RECALL SEEING JASON BARKER IN THE BUILDING EARLY ON THIS YEAR, AS WELL AS PETER EPSTEIN'S SECRETARY NOELL, ALSO THE GUY WHO GOES BY "DOM" AKA SALLY WOLF'S ALLEGED DEAD HUSBAND NOW ATTEMPTING TO DO STAND-UP, AND OF COURSE TERRY TUNDER RETURNED I GUESS SHE'D LIKE TO GET ANOTHER FACE LIFT, AND NO DISRESPECT, HER TIMING IS SPOT ON...SO MERIT FINANCIAL, AND ALL THE NEFARIOUS TYPES WHO ARE ATTEMPTING TO CLAIM THEMSELVES AS SCREENWRITERS, NOVELISTS, AND AUTOBIOGRAPHERS...OF MY INTELLECTUAL PROPERTIES... I NOTICED AT THE HOLLYWOOD LIBRARY YESTERDAY AND NOW ALL LIBRARIES SEEM TO BE INTERLOCKED, IF THAT IS A WORD, AND ALL OF THESE REMADE ACTORS, INCLUDING ANOTHER ONE WHO JUST SAT DOWN TO MY RIGHT WHO HAD APPEARED IN THAT DREADFUL MOVIE IT WAS A DETECTIVE FILM WITH THE BLACK ACTOR THAT DRESSES UP AS A WOMAN WHO IS VERY CLOSE TO OPRAH AND HER CROWD, AND MY FRIEND TRACEE LYLES SAID THAT HE HAD AUDITIONED FOR HER YEARS PAST...BERNIE CASEY HAD TAKEN ME TO THE PREMIER AT THE EGYPTION ON HOLLYWOOD BLVD AND THE ACTOR CURRENTLY SITTING TO MY RIGHT, WAS IN THE FILM, BUT NOW HE HAS BLUE EYES RATHER THAN BROWN. JUST LIKE DENIRO WHOSE EYES TURNED BROWN TO BLUE IN VENICE BEACH, NEAR THE BORDELLO THAT I ALLEGE THAT GOLDEN MANAGEMENT OWNS... REMEMBER, 60 YEARS OF SABOTAGE, THAT'S LONGER THAN THE ALLEGED HOLOCOST I BELIEVE AND I'M STILL WAITING TO BE PAID. AS I HAD STATED IN GWENDOLYN MITCHELL'S GLOBAL PLAN SPEECH:..."THIS IS A NEW WORLD THAT REWARDS RIGHT AND PUNISHES THOSE WHO HAD CREATED A HELL ON EARTH SINCE THE BEGINNING OF TIME"...ETC. SO YOU THINK THAT UNREALITY AND REALITY HAVE EQUAL MEASURE? REALLY? HOW SO? ******** I RECALL WHEN JANE FONDA HAD MARRIED AN ALLEGED POLITICIAN NAMED "TOM HAYDEN" AND WHAT I KNOW NOW (WHICH IS VERY LITTLE BY THE WAY) I HAVE A FEELING THAT SHE HAD BEEN PART OF A RUSE...AND SHE WAS IN CLUTE AND PLAYED THE HOOKER, AND SUTHERLAND (WHO I BELIEVE EITHER HIS COVER, OR THE MAN HIMSELF WAS SITTING IN YEE'S DENTAL OFFICE, GETTING ATTENDED TO) I HAD CALLED AND WRITTEN TO CAA AS PREVIOUSLY MENTIONED, FOR THE RETURN OF MY ORIGINAL SCREENPLAY, "WHEN THE DEVIL PLAYS" AS I HAVE ASKED THE FEMALE WITH THE NEW JAG IN UNIT #104, POSING AS CHARLIZE THERON THANKS TO RON MYER. WHOSE HUSBAND IS ACTUALLY BLOND, THOUGH HE WEARS A MASK WITH DARK HAIR, AND WHO DO I SUSPECT IS WANTING TO PLAY SEAN CONNERY, IS KEITH, MY BUDDY AT TOPZ WHO I COULDN'T UNDERSTAND FOR THE LIFE OF ME WHY HE WAS SHOWING ME CONDOS IN SHERMAN OAKS WHEN I ALREADY HAD OWNED MY CONDO AT THAT TIME FOR ABOUT 10-15 YEARS. OH AND KEITH'S HANDSOME SON, "CHRISTIAN" I HAD NO IDEA THAT HE KNEW MY EX HUSBAND AND TOD. AND WHEN I HAD VISITED CHUCK'S PARTNER IN THE REAL ESTATE BUSINESS WHEN THEY WERE CONSTRUCTING CUSTOM-BUILT HOMES BACK IN NEW YORK, AND HIS PARTNER AND WIFE WERE NICE ENOUGH I GUESS, I GIFTED THEM A LOVELY PLACARD FOR THE OUTSIDE OF THEIR HOME, AND I RECALL AT THE TIME, THAT CHUCK SHOWED ME A PHOTO OF HIS EX WIFE, IT WAS A GREY AND WHITE PHOTO AND THE WOMAN WAS SMILING INTO CAMERA AND SHE COULD HAVE BEEN SARA(H)GLADYS MATTHEWS OLIVER MITCHELL, WHO PORTRAYED MY MOTHER, ALSO I BRIEFLY HAD MET THEIR SON, A GOOD LOOKING YOUNG MAN WHO REMINDED ME OF TOD, BUT OF COURSE, NOT AS GOOD-LOOKING AS OUR SON. AND TOD ASKED ME, SO YOU MET SO AND SO AND WHAT WAS THAT ABOUT? I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT HE MEANT SO I SAID I HAD A BRIEF VISIT, DIDN'T STAY LONG, AND THAT WAS THE END OF IT. SO AGAIN, I MUST ASK, WHY AM I NOT RECEIVING MY RESIDUALS PER THE WORK THAT I'VE PERFORMED IN THE INDUSTRY, FROM AFTRA SAG, BEST OF EVERYTHING WAS UNDER AFTRA SAG. AND IS MY PARENT UNION, SHAFT(THE ORIGINAL) GOT ME INTO SAG, AND THE PLAY, "THE IMMACULATE MISCONCEPTION" OF COURSE A COMEDY, AT THE CHERRY LANE GOT ME INTO ACTORS EQUITY AND THE PLAY WAS AN EQUITY WAIVER. AND THE FILM "RECESS" WHICH HAD WON THE "PHOENIX AWARD" AS BEST FILM, WHICH I HAD INNOCENTLY STATED WAS A POLITICAL DECISION TO GIVE IT THE AWARD, I MUST RETRACT BECAUSE I DID NOT UNDERSTAND AT THE TIME, THE IMPORTANCE OF THIS EXPERIMENTAL FILM, DIRECTED BY RULE JOHNSON, PRODUCED BY BILL BARNES, THAT CONSTANTLY SAID, "BE ONE OF US"...A REMARKABLE FILM AND WELL DESERVING OF THE AWARD... IN FACT I REMEMBER BARRY PRIMUS ASKING WHEN WE HAD CROSSED PATHS IN NEW YORK, "DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT FILM IS ABOUT?" AND I GAVE SOME "BS" ANSWER AT THE TIME, BECAUSE I DIDN'T KNOW THE EXPANSIVENESS OF THE MEANING OF THE AVANT GARDE FILM AT THE TIME, THINKING AND JUDGING MYSELF, AS USUAL,THAT IT WAS WRONG FOR AN ACTRESS OR ACTOR NOT TO KNOW THE THEME OF SUCH AN IMPORTANT FILM THAT THEY HAD ACCEPTED A ROLE TO BE IN, IT WAS MY VERY FIRST FILM, WHOSE THEME HAD BEEN DONE MANY TIMES, i.e."Boys in the Band"...the film that I had viewed about the young black women in Brooklyn one woman was open to accepting that she was a lesbian while the other was in denial...and of course the film that my friend who was kind enough to recommend me into AMPAS, Robert Fields, whose non verbal scene with Gary Merril(Betty Davis's husband)had on the subway... So yes, I am well aware now, the impact of the film, "RECESS" AND I AM PROUD TO HAVE BEEN PART OF THE CAST. I HAD NO IDEA THAT PEOPLE COULD BE SO SMALL MINDED ABOUT LIFE. (C)COPYRIGHTED BY GWENDOLYN MITCHELL ON SATURDAY, DECEMBER 19, 2015 AT 1:10PM SANTA MONICA, CALI 90401