PARIS AND ALONE...

I MUST RETURN TO PARIS TO EAT AT THE EIFEL TOWER, THIS TIME. LIKE LAST TIME, I MAY BE ALONE, WHICH CAN BE QUITE ENJOYABLE- LIKE MY LAST VISIT - QUICK AND SHORT, STAYING AT A MINIMALIST'S DELIGHT- A ROOM-A BED-AND A SHOWER, RIGHT OUTSIDE OF PARIS WHERE I HAD VISITED THE AMELIA EARHARDT MEMORIAL - WITH THE GERMAN BEER FEST BAR NEARBY - AND I WONDERED IF IT WERE POSSIBLE THAT AMELIA COULD STILL BE ALIVE - THEY NEVER FOUND HER BODY YOU KNOW, AND SHE COULD BE RIGHT HERE IN CALIFORNIA - ENJOYING HER NEW IDENTITY - TIRED OF THE OLD ONE- WISHING TO RESTORE HER LIFE TO SOME KIND OF NORMALCY - NOT LIKE ME- THERE IS STILL TOO MUCH YEARNING IN MY SOUL TO THROW IN THE TOWEL, QUITE YET.

THE PLEASURE OF YOUR OWN COMPANY CAN BE QUITE GRATIFYING.

ONE OF THE THINGS THAT I MISS THE MOST IN NOT BEING IN MY HOME, IS WHEN I WOULD AWAKE EARLY IN THE MORNING WHEN IT'S STILL DARK AND I COULDN'T WAIT TO GET AT THE COMPUTER TO CREATE IN MY MIND AT LEAST, A MASTERPIECE...A MASTERPIECE TO ME, IS WHEN AN AUTHOR WRITES TRUE, EVEN WHEN WRITING FICTION. A MASTERPIECE IS SOMETHING THAT TOUCHES THE INARDS OF MANY READERS...

I HAD RECENTLY FOUND A COPY OF "GONE WITH THE WIND" WHERE "MARGARET MITCHELL" HAD CREATED THE SCENE WHEN RHETT BUTLER WALKS OUT ON HER AND OF COURSE SHE'S DEVESTATED, FOR A SHORT WHILE...BUT WHAT IS LIFE FULFILLING IS WHEN SHE TELLS HERSELF THAT TOMORROW IS ANOTHER DAY AND SHE'LL HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY OF REDEEMING HERSELF AND GET RHET BACK...IF SHE DECIDES TO.

NOTHING IS OVER UNTIL YOU DECIDE IT IS. YOU ARE THE MASTER OF YOUR SOUL...I DON'T QUITE REMEMBER "INVICTUS" BUT IT REAFFIRMS THE POWER OF BELIEVING IN YOURSELF...YET ACKNOWLEDGING THAT THERE IS A GREATER POWER BEYOND YOU...I AM AWARE THAT MANY PEOPLE HAVE BEEN HELPING ME AND I APPRECIATE THAT. BUT I TRULY BELIEVE THAT NO ONE KNOWS BETTER THAN I, WHAT IS BEST FOR ME. AND THE REALITY IS THAT THERE MAY BE AN ULTERIOR MOTIVE AS TO WHY MANY FEEL SO COMPELLED TO UPSET YOUR LIFE STYLE, PARTICULARLY IF YOU APPEAR TO BE HAPPY WITH BEING BY YOURSELF AT TIMES. WRITING DOES REQUIRE THAT YOU SPEND ALOT OF TIME, ALONE.

THEY WANT YOU DOWN WITH THEM, AND NOT IN A GOOD WAY. IT'S YOUR LIFE, AND YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO LIVE IT AS YOU SEE FIT, LIVE FOR YOURSELF, AND NOT FOR ANYONE ELSE. A POSITION THAT TOO MANY WOMEN HAVE BEEN PLACED IN, AND FEWER MEN AS WELL, FORCED TO LIVE BY ONE PATTERN THAT SERVES THOSE WHO HAVE PLACED THEMSELVES IN POWER TO MAKE SURE THAT YOU DON'T SUCCEED, BECAUSE, THEY HAVEN'T. PEOPLE WHO DON'T KNOW ME, DON'T CARE ABOUT ME, BUT PRETEND THAT THEY HAVE BEEN DENIED OPPORTUNITIES THAT I HAVE BEEN GIVEN. WHEN THE TRUTH IS, THAT I HAVE WORKED FOR EVERYTHING I HAVE, WITH THE CREATOR HELPING ME ALWAYS.
YET THOSE WHO DESIRE SOMETHING FOR NOTHING, WORK THEIR PLAN, TELL THEIR LIES TO TAKE WHAT THEY WANT AND OUR SOCIETY HAS OBLIGED THEM.

HIDING BEHIND THEIR GENDER, MEN ARE WEAKER THAN WOMEN THEY SAY, WHEN DID THAT STORY START I WONDER, GIVING THEM THE POWER TO BE TRIFILING AND LAZY, AND SOCIETY HAS ALLOWED IT BECAUSE MANY MALES HAVE ALWAYS BEEN AT PLATE, HITTING THE BALL, WHILE MANY WOMEN, NEVER EVER GET UP AT BAT, AND SOME OF THESE WOMEN ARE VERY CAPABLE. BUT ARE CONSTANTLY DENIED WHAT THEY HAVE WORKED LONG AND HARD FOR, BECAUSE SOMETHING IN THEIR LIVES HAD CHANGED THEM, FOR ME, IT WAS WHEN THERE WAS NO ONE THERE FOR ME BUT THE HEAVENLY FATHER, AND WHEN I FINALLY GOT BACK UP ON MY FEET...HERE THE CULPRITS CAME WITH THEIR WEAK EXCUSES OF WHY THEY SHOULD TAKE MY HOME, AND ALL MY ASSETS, AND THEY DIDN'T EVEN KNOW ME, AND IF THEY DID, BARELY.

AND THOSE WHO LISTENED TO THE LIES AND WANTED TO BELIEVE THEM, THESE INDIVIDUALS, SOME PART OF A GLOBAL GROUP OUT TO DESTROY PEOPLE'S WAY OF LIFE, BECAUSE THEY HAD RUINED THEIR OWN LIVES LONG AGO, AND THEY WEREN'T GOING TO ALLOW ME TO MAKE THEM LOOK BAD, BECAUSE MOST OF THEM, NOT ALL ARE MEN, WHILE I'M NOTHING BUT A WOMAN, AND THE WOMEN WHO ALSO OBJECT TO A SINGLE UNMARRIED WOMAN MAKING UP UNTRUE STORIES ABOUT ME SO THAT THEY CAN GRAB WHAT BELONGS TO ME AND WHAT I HAD RIGHTFULLY EARNED.

THEY NEED A SCAPEGOAT AND I'M THE PERFECT CHOICE, WHY? BECAUSE IF YOU BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY CHARTS WHICH I'M NOT SURE THAT I DO, I HAVE NO SCORPIO IN ME, AND SCORPIONS KNOW HOW TO STING, BUT I DON'T, THOUGH I AM DETERMINED TO NOT ALLOW WHAT I PAID FOR TO BE TAKEN BY THOSE WHO DON'T WORK AND RECEIVE WELFARE AND DISABILITY AND UNEMPLOYMENT, AND THEY BELIEVE THAT I AM ALONE AND NO ONE IS GOING TO HELP ME. AND OF COURSE POLITCIANS AND RELIGIOUS REPRESENTATIVES, ARE THE ONES WHO ALWAYS KNOW BEST WHAT'S GOOD FOR THE REST OF US, WHILE UNABLE TO SIFT THROUGH THEIR TRAGIC LIVES.

I BELIEVE WE CAN AND WILL DO BETTER ONCE WE DECIDE HOW WE CAN CREATE A HARMONIOUS WORLD, AND TRULY WORK AT THINKING ABOUT THIS SERIOUSLY, BECAUSE IT IS VERY SERIOUS.

THANK YOU.

THANKS FOR LISTENING AND I DO BELIEVE THOUGH IT WILL TAKE TIME, AND WE NEED LOTS OF HONEST FEED BACK, OUR GLOBAL PLAN CAN SUCCEED, AND YOU ARE NECESSARY TO MAKE IT HAPPEN.

(C)COPYRIGHTED BY GWEN MITCHELL ON TUESDAY, AUGUST 2, 2016 AT 6:07PM AT THE SANTA MONICA PUBLIC LIBRARY, SANTA MONICA, 90401.